Turning Disappointment into Wonder: A Journey of Resilience

I woke up this morning thinking about yesterday’s disappointment and the expectations I’d had on a personal matter. 

I got into the car to drive my boo to his shop, asked for his listening which I requested him to not say anything until I’m done. 

Here’s what I said:

I realize that I’d had expectations on the situation. And when that didn’t happen, I created a body that I have more familiarity with and am more practiced at. I call it the “fuck all, y’all body”. Yet, as I reflect on yesterday, I was very uncomfortable, tight in my abdomen and my mood pissy, which as you know, was infiltrating our home. 

Yesterday was a good day to see how I gave over my mood to someone else. I let them have the remote, the light switch to dictate how I show up. So, today, my mood is wonder. It’s bigger than curiosity. It feels open in my chest when I say that word, I look up and around. I also realized that the thick haze over the city was affecting my mood, too, and while that’s understandable, there'll likely be more days like that in the future, and I can’t waste another moment giving over my mood to surroundings I don’t like nor can control. I have an important vision for our life and people I work with. I can’t afford to sit on the sidelines when things don’t go my way.

Ok, that’s it, I said.

My boo was quiet for a few moments and then said: I’m inspired by how you worked through the story of disappointment by choosing to observe the phenomenon instead. That's going to be helpful for me today. 

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This is one of the possibilities when you practice skills that change your body and the bodies of people around you. You have less down time in upset. You're able to talk through upsets clearly. And you create freedom in the upset, not minus it.